tear in my heart

Tyler Joseph wrote an excellent lyrics in a song called Tear In My Heart that was performed by his two-piece band Twenty One Pilots in 2015, he says:

sometimes you gotta bleed to know that you're alive and have a soul,

but it takes someone to come around- to show you how.

though altogether i enjoy the beat and the arrangement of this song, i'm no musician so i can't really comment further. however this particular line of lyrics provided above is the part that i really treasure. we rarely (referring to we as in myself) feel alive and whole, not until someone come around and show us how feeling alive is like, because of how easily they can hurt us. their ability to hurt and bleed us out is the reason why we feel alive. they will, sooner or later, show us how it's done.

it really does make me wonder..if he means this person is the person that we share our heart and soul with, or could this person be someone who barely have any idea about us but still have all the power to tear us apart. 

sounds very confusing, but of course in this song, he expressed it very clearly that it's the former. but you see, sometimes when you look at someone- you know they have all the ability to hurt you, even when they've done nothing. the feelings you have for them, feelings only you know, is what causes them to have this power over you.

i seriously have issues. some serious issues man. i don't even know where i'm going with this.

i'm in this place where i'm stuck with two choices, a) choosing the thing that i've been longing for all this while, or in other words i have to become selfish and b) holding on to whatever this is about, or in other words, i have to become absolutely selfless. 

no one gave me these choices, of course. i made it all by myself, as always.

i didn't know i could finally relate to the lyrics. sometimes i envy everyone around me that made it seem so easy, some of them didn't even have to try. i wish i could just mend my heart and just fall for someone else and offfff we go. that way it'd be easier. a win win situation. 

but you see, it's my heart we're talking about. it's stone cold. nothing can help me but time, i guess.

enough with the heavy talk.

the second best part of Tear In My Heart, is of course:

the songs on the radio are okay,

but my taste in music is your face 

and Tyler just tells it like it is.

:)