I'm Poussey in OITNB

I feel a lot normal these days. I'm probably so used of feeling like shit now that's normal to me. 

Nobody wants to have a distraction when thing has been going pretty well for them. After series of self-reflecting I realise the need of finding the other half of me is never a good idea, at least now. No matter how serious I think I might long for someone to be my side again, it's all in my head. I'm a weak, self-centered woman. That someone might help me get back on my feet or that someone might help me fuck things up again. I wouldn't wanna risk it. 

Anything happens, happens you know. I might need to do myself a favour to not hope for anything good from now on.

Till then.